A Tell-tale Heart

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Hi there,
You know I’m not the update-y kind of person but I might as well do it for the novelty of the new year, hoping that I wouldn’t become inactive again.
As we all usher in the new year with our opened Christmas presents, memories we made during the previous year, we tend to look back at our lives and what we have done over the course of the months whether in school, at home or at work. The amazing thing is that our mindset changes so quickly that we cannot really understand (foolish) things we did and what caused these notions. I suppose in the course of all that day to day life, we lose a certain part of us that is always there, but just not activated yet. This mindset that I am talking about is usually the period where we have time to just sit down and relax, pondering and further unlocking our minds. One good example would be when girls and boys my age or younger would have time during camps, writing their reflections on life. Okay I think im officially rambling on but I shall still continue. So coming back, after I thought about what happened in 2009 and all my mental reflections, I made a list of goals for 2010 and my infamous new year resolutions (that usually don’t work) and just got ready for the new year and my SATs and A Levels. *shudder* And placed it up in my wall as a constant reminder.
Oh yes I do also have to tell you about my dearest new obsession! Its David Tennant! Cheery, charming, charismatic Scottish guy that is totally my type of guy I would do anything to date. Although I haven’t really defined what my ‘type’ really is. Anyways he is best known for playing ‘Doctor Who’, the longest British TV show apparently. The best thing about it is that it is in my geeky genre that I like: Sci-fi. I hope I can get my hands on it and watch some of the episodes. Oh and I heard on BBC radio 4 about his interview of the songs that he would listen to if he was stuck on a deserted island. Very interesting I would say. The Singapore media should churn out more interesting programmes on radio…I might just listen to it if it changed its boring concept of what they perceive as ‘radio programmes’. Bleh. Speaking of media, I have also grown to like TV shows such as ‘Bones’, ‘House’ and interestingly ‘One Tree Hill’. I never would have thought I was into that drama genre but I guess it somehow appealed to me (other than the groovy bassline of the theme song), maybe to satisfy my inability to have such drama in my own life. Yes, sad isn’t it? Well escapism is practiced by everybody regardless of your social status because the desire of having a utopian world is better than life itself.
AGAIN, I am going off topic…wait, what is the topic actually? Well, I think its just my tired brain wanting to get some of the words out of my head to clear my thoughts I guess. Well I have plenty more to say about my day itself which I was supposed to be blogging about but I think it’s sufficient enough to make your eyes a little sore out of reading small fonts. I should have made a medal to give out to the person who has diligently read this post all the way through. Oh and I have a tumblr too! You can check it out, if you can find it. Well my eyes are kind of glazing a bit so I think I should really stop writing…have a great 2010. =D

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Hey you,
Its been a long time since I’ve written anything. I suppose we all get caught up in life and the busy nature of it we forget times like these of reflection and quiet times. Well anyways, yeah I finished my promos and am waiting for my results. I guess I wanted to write here again because of the solidarity that I have here I suppose compared to facebook and twitter, since my parents and my whole church members are connected and everything that I say or do will fall under scrutiny. I suppose writing in a blog is no better but at least it’s private enough.
Anyways, today Zhi Ying and Andy came over to my house to do PW and yeah it was fun having them around, as always. After that I watched like a lot of episodes of TV shows and spoilt myself with all the latest info about the other episodes so I wouldn’t have to waste time watching all of their episodes.
Well I wasn’t planning on writing a long post, and I don’t think I will try to keep up with the updates on this blog. Maybe I just wanted to say two cents worth of my thoughts for today I suppose. Yeah and I don’t really know but I just might start to have feelings for this guy I know. Maybe I was harbouring it at the back of my mind somewhere, but I suppose I can’t keep that in hiding for too long. I haven’t exactly told anyone because I wasn’t sure if I was ready to face another unreciprocated relationship that could potentially destroy my current relationship with him. Oh gosh, love really is complicated when it isn’t sorted out. I suppose it might fade away sooner or later so yeah, why bother at all. Don’t you just love pessimism?
Alright then I think I’ve spilled too much beans from my jelly bean jar. Wish me all the best for my results. Until then.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Hey all,
It has been a long time since I have written and so many things happened along the way. Hmm where shall I start...?
Orientation week only lasted about two days. Unlike VJC and SRJC. Ugh, but it’s alright because next week will be my orientation camp. I am so excited about it as I can really get to know my classmates of 09S24 well.
Last Thursday, after school, Andrea and I went to Jeremy’s house and chilled out there. Boy, were the JC students (Andrea, Hadi, Zaf and I) tired. We took pillows and slept on the floor, energy drained out of our bodies, while the other poly students (Duane, Jem, and YX) were playing so happily, contented in their soccer game. Then they played cards and I fell asleep on the sofa. Then I almost had a pillow fight with Hadi and hitting zaf. Haha, my memory is a bit hazy on why I did that but anyways. It was great to meet up, the four of us I mean, together again.
On Saturday, I had a meeting with 08’ Excos. It was really fun catching up with everybody. Nadrah, Albin, Razzan and I, spent the whole time laughing and having fun. Amazingly we did what was on the agenda and completed a draft of the 09’ Councillor’s camp. Hopefully we can meet this Friday the 13th at PRCS once again.
After that, I went out with nadrah and then with Aaron for a movie treat because he lost a bet. Muahaha. But it was fun lah, except the seats in the cinema was quite low so I could see heads peeping out from the seats. The musty movie theatre at Bugis was alright in the end. Then in the middle of watching Benjamin Button, Aaron and I had an urge to go to the toilet. Hehe, so we sneaked out of the place, I think it was too much of drinking water and of the drinks that we had before the movie. Anyways we had fun so that’s the main thing. We then went our separate ways because he had to attend some family gathering.
On Sunday, we had church and my dad spoke most of the time, leaving very little time for Pastor Edwin to speak. Hehe, but the message was crystal clear and like always Pastor Edwin intertwines the bible and his childhood years. My mum was sitting next to me and she was like saying do shrimps make noise? And I was like, Huh? And then she found out that the pastor wasn’t saying the shrimps were making the noise in the baskets but the frogs (childhood stories). My mum realised it and started laughing and then I laughed to and hit her pretty loudly, oopps mummy. Hehe. But it was quite amusing. Then later I taught my guitar class finger styles and we played a couple of songs together.
This week I’ve meet some awesome people and have met my classmates. One is Cheryl Ann Lee!!! Haha, she was last time my primary school buddy with three other gals. So yay, we’re together again. One is Sharaniya, she’s an Indian from India, but is studying in Singapore. She is really an awesome friend. Yesterday we hung out together in-between classes. Then later Cheryl was nice to let me stay with her group of TKSS friends all whom were funny and we played UNO. Many laughs and friendships were forged, while waiting for my shooting trials. Hehe. I was so tired, my eyes were glazing.(because of yesterday...I thought I needed to pass up the Chem Tutorial by the next day so I was rushing like crazy until pass midnight) So yeah, I tried the air rifle, it was okay I suppose. My ave wasn’t good at all. After that I went for the choir sit-ins, just to see the choir atmosphere. When the door opened, I could see my former choir instructor there. It was quite shocking. Anyways, I went too practiced in the Alto sectionals. I didn’t think it was any different from secondary school or primary school for that matter, I really needed a break from Choir. Then I met up with my friend and we went to walk around tampines mall, exchanged gifts and he sent me home. ^^
Oh and Happy 17th birthday Aaron!
Anyways, on Saturday, I’m going out to buy my new laptop. Yay! And with the valentines money from my mum, I so want to get a nice VIAO NS series. Hehe. I will have to check that out. Well, that’s one thing that makes me love valentines. (I get money) Muhaha.
Hopefully, crossing fingers and praying will help me get into shooting... Wish me all the best...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Yay! I would like to thank Hadi for commenting on my blog. I honestly love comments like that, it brings me to have a self check on what I’m writing and the reality that web logging isn’t just about projecting my world into yours, but safeguarding my opinion about what I write.
Behind every stereotype, there is a kernel of truth
I for one do not stand for or believe in stereotypes, but it does hold some truth. Take for example: “Jewish mothers are very nagging and loud.” This generalised statement does have reality in it. I would infer it from the film Fiddler on the Roof and other books I have read, directing to the origins of where this comment has come about. We can’t just shun down these people as generalising, they do have some credible background.
Haha, but then again, it WAS from a British Newspaper, it obviously had some intentions there. And yes, I am pretty much a UK ass-kisser (oopps, I mean ‘arse-kisser). Like duh, I had background there.
Anyways, I’ll try to make my opinion less of generalised thoughts and more of facts. ;) My bad.
Let’s refresh...
Andrea had a lovely sleepover, with O’s cereal, hot drink, hammocks and newspapers. She slept on the lower deck and I slept on the upper deck of my younger sisters’ bunk beds (yes, I threw them out). XD Kidding. In the morning, we decided to meet Duane and co. at a less ungodly hour at macs. Then we went to the supermarket, all 9 of us, I think. There was Duane, yx, Hadi, Eng Liang, Jun Hong, Faris, Andrea and me. Ok fine, 8 of us. Then we proceeded to my house to prepare the food for the picnic that day. Hearing Duane talk about his political views so openly, I wonder how long it will take for him to get jailed. Hehe. Anyways, we met with the rest of the class and I decided it wouldn’t be any fun without my dear darling Sarah. So I called her and gave my ‘poor, pathetic, lonely’ talk (which she bought). Sabrina, Sarah and I jumped into the cab and went to East coast. I didn’t really enjoy myself there, except the part where I ate sandwiches and sushi. It turned out that so many people brought food, I had to bring home 70% of what we made.
On Friday, I got a call from Andrea in the morning and she shouted to me, ‘what did u get?’ I, blur as usual, gave her a ‘huh?’. Yup, it was TPJC. I didn’t have much of a ‘Yay’ or a ‘shit’ in my mind but I told Andrea anyway and she screamed.
I met up with Jeremy and Aaron and we went to see Mrs Low. We walked around the school to find her and when we did she asked us to go to the chem lab. Aaron just HAD to wave to Ms Lee and she walked straight out of the classroom and talked to us, even though we didn’t want to see her at all. Thanks Aaron, it made my day, REALLY. We gave Mrs Low oranges later and then we went to Andrea’s house. Sat around the dining table and had some small talk. I could see that Andrea was still sore about the whole ‘Duane didn’t invite me’ thing, and so she made a whole box of cookies for Duane. (guilt always works)
Duane’s condo was really nice, it had like huge columns, swimming pools etc. And his house looked really nice too. The only thing that irked me was the kitten outside his door. Heh. His mom was pretty pleasant too. Miley didn’t show up...which the guys said that she came earlier to meet him privately. Your guesses are as good as mine. ;D Then my dad wanted me to meet him at Whitesands. Ugh. He sent me out to the bus stop though. ^^
On Saturday, my mum woke me up and asked me to go to check out TPJC with her. Finally, my mum decided to give TPJC a chance. My dad drove us there and we walked around the school. My dad interviewed a student and prayed for him. Then we went off. It was a short trip, but it spoke for itself. They approved.
When I got home, my mum asked me to take care of my youngest sis. So I was stuck with her, until I had a brilliant idea. Bringing her to Jem’s house and enjoying my time there as well. Oh and I decided to try on my heels as well. Turned out to be painful, an instrument of torture. Then Aaron brought my sis and me to jem’s house where I learnt how to play cards...and gamble. Yikes. But I had a great time, even though my sister was kind of cranky and irritating. (As always) Pizzas+sushi+friends= fun time. Hehe.
On Sunday we had a guest speaker from Sri Lanka. Oh did I tell you, the worship was on fire! It was like I couldn’t stop playing the piano. It was like a workout with God. Awesome experience. Yupps. Then I had my guitar lessons with my students and then attended the Chinese service for a brief moment.
Yay! New School! New environment! New teachers! New subjects! New CCA! New friends! (of course we can’t forget the existing ones)Boy, am I in a JC... I don’t know about you but I wasn’t all that enthusiastic about going to this JC, but He (looks up at the corner of my eyes) probably did. So here I am. I was assigned to OG35 and sat next to Xuan Jie the whole time. I didn’t make any friends as quick as a blink, due to my anti-social skills (that seemed to be manifesting), but I did have quite a few acquaintances after the end of a day.
Today, we had to learn the school song and school cheer and then we had intro lectures on econs and chem. It was alright I suppose. Then we had choir auditions, no way am I going down that path again. Come to think of it today we didn’t do much. Met Andrea’s friend, she was quite a nice girl and friendly too. And I bought my school clothes!
Oopps gtg, my sister is calling me..

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

(Continuation from last post)
One was about injecting Melanotan to get an instant Barbie effect on the skin. Tsk. Apparently it is illegal to sell it but not exactly illegal to buy it. And A LOT of people in the UK are injecting themselves with this thing into their stomachs so they can have immediate tanning effect. “The drug, which tricks the skin into producing the dark pigment melanin” causes the skin to become darker after 10 days later. Wow, talk about people doing things in the name of beauty. Well that vanity can cause them their health. It isn’t actually medically cleared as ‘safe to use’, but people still use it. I’m sure this teaches us, Singaporeans to shut our mouths and think about our sunny weather before cussing at the heat. (Which foreigners would gladly pay money to have a tan in Singapore)

And another article was about the mannerism of the Britons. This article made me grin a lot. It was a study about the Titanic survivors. They calculated that the percentage of Britons that survived were actually very much lower than the Americans. Do you know why? Well they suggested that it was probably their manners of “after you” that made it the death of them. Lol. But it is in fact true. That’s why I want to get a British boyfriend. Muhaha. I could picture an American saying “get outta my way” racing to get into the lifeboats, while the British would do the opposite. Told you the Britons (of old) are more cultured...although they cuss a lot now.

(side tracking)...did I tell you that the SAT english is really challenging...I might consider taking the exam at the end of the year rather than the middle...oh well.

Today I’m meeting up with Andrea and she is going to sleepover at my house! Yays. And then the next day we are going to meet up with Alicia before we go to the picnic. Okay, I gtg now. Love you all.

Oh my...I didn’t know I haven’t written since a week. Busy as always.
Going back last Wednesday, I went to Andrea’s house and made the jellies and we went to GBG and had dinner, after walking through rows of restaurants selling the exact same thing: Steamboat. Wow. We bought prata at the end of the row of restaurants and went back to eat it. It was darn filling. One of those pratas was equivalent to 4 of the prata’s from west plaza...talk about ripping off. Anyways we had worship session and then when it was time to go out, Andrea got all dressed up for the walk, but my dad said she needed a consent letter. So we desperately made a call to her dad to give the green signal to my dad. But nooo, my dad insisted she needed a letter of consent. So we both stayed back at the church with one of the new comers...Ria was here name, I think. Then my dad gave an orientation of the ministry in the Philippines. Then after that, we went to some place...shoot, I forgot the name, and had a midnight snack, tohsay(I don’t know how it’s spelt), for the first time in my life. Hehe, okay I’m rather ignorant of such things, I’m glad Andrea is always around. And then I stayed up the whole day without going to sleep, watching movies.

On Thursday I met up with a friend and we went to changi beach. There weren’t a lot of people there though. We walked around the beach, just catching up on things and basically having fun. Then we took a bus down to IKEA, but we didn’t alight at the last stop before the highway so we ended up travelling to punggol and back again. Haha. I think that was the longest ride I had taken to IKEA. We had lunch there and looked around for things for my house. (My mum told me that she gives me more pocket money than our maid and yet our maid does more work than me) So I had to help out in the house, one way or the other. Then I went back home and slept through the night, forgetting about my meeting with my guitar students...ahhhh.

On last Friday, I had breakfast with my auntie Joyce. Had lunch with my mum and dad. And dinner with my auntie and cousin. Hehe. Yup that was basically me travelling to and fro to meet up with people and talk and just spending time with them. Indeed, I had a wonderful time catching up with my auntie and my cousin. (I used to go to their house very often) and I’m glad I made a trip across the road to her house. I think the closest ones in distance may be the farthest ones you know. But at least now the repair work of the bridge is there, between our relationship that is.
On Saturday, I went out with my sister to buy some clothes for myself. I ended up buying a dress that I didn’t want and a shirt. It was nice, as in the cutting but the colour was a bit dull...anyways, the main thing was that I had fun with my sister and I bought red high heels. Muhaha, I can be taller than u guys out there, just for sniggers. Hehe.

On Sunday after Church service, I had to impart some of my piano skills to several students. It was fun actually, I never did it before. And plus the class dynamics was great. The age group was very diverse...which made it challenging yet enjoyable. I will definitely look forward to the next session. After that, I went for a reunion dinner at my grandparent’s house. Collected my ang paos and prayed for the family.
This Monday, for the first time in a long time, my whole family went out on visitation. Dressed in our nice and new clothes, we drove to both our grandparents places, visited them and ate lovely Chinese new year snacks. We then headed down to the marina barrage and took a look at the facilities there. It seemed like everyone was wearing their New Year clothes and for the first time, almost every person they wore a shirt and nice pants (for the males) and a nice dress or a blouse (for the females), not in sloppy slippers and shorts. Thank goodness. Did I mention that some foreigners thought asked why there were so many prostitutes in Singapore? Yeah, you got the picture didn’t you?

Yesterday I took a break and sat down on my hammock and read Tricia’s book, Atlantis and The Times, which my dad bought for S$10(which was only 90p in UK). I didn’t do much, just basically relaxing. Then there was this smoke outside my house in the ‘forest’, near the beach. It was pretty bad and I could smell the smoke from the 14th floor. My helper wiped the tables and it was filled with black soot. Ugh. And Aaron said it was probably some bbq gone wrong and yx assumed it was incense burning, well I thought otherwise. Oh and there were two interesting articles in the Daily Mail (which was only 50p in UK but S$5.85 in Singapore) (continue in next post)

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Procrastination, procrastination
This off course diversion
Formidable delusions
Of confident conclusions
Tempt me astray
From my work for today
Luring me to the pillow that I now lay
Which dreams of perfect will fly away
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No wonder I was nicknamed wild boar...I am such a slob. I barely started studying for my SATs. Gosh Aana, wake up! I wrote this little poem, well not really a poem, a reminder for me to start studying. I tried to start yesterday with my thick volume of SATs, but to no avail. Okay, okay, recap.

The OGL thing on Friday was okay. They told us what group I was in and started singing the campfire songs for us to familiarize with. I was actually quite excited about it, until I realised that the dates for the camp was really soon and it clashed with so many of my dates with friends, family and relatives. So Alyah the brilliant and I decided to quit this orientation camp. I felt kind of bad at first, but I realised it wasn’t my fault at all. Nobody cared to inform me earlier of the dates, neither did any of my friends know when I asked them. Plus there was an abundance of OLGs this year so I didn’t think, one or two individuals that pulled out, might matter. So ta-da, I resigned.

On Saturday I had this whole schedule planned out with my friends. Haha, I AM very obsessed with keeping to my schedule. So I was sort of upset when my family planned to go to Chinatown and buy stuff. But family comes first then friends, so I excused myself from the gathering and when to Chinatown. It has been a long time since I went back to Chinatown. It was rather crowded, with an extremely long line of people queuing up for some free floss. Singapore culture, tsk. Anyway my dad had to drive round and round just to find a parking space. We then went around and took photos of unusual sights, to show to my dad’s friends around the world, what’s Chinese New Year like in Singapore. Then we went to OG to buy my sisters clothes. Havoc rang in the air...It was like a battle field there. So many mothers held their children at their wrists asking them to strip in front of the crowds because they couldn’t wait for the changing rooms, which had a terribly long line. I never want to go there again during Chinese New Year. (Don’t worry, my sisters held their dignity and waited patiently) Then I went with my older sis to Central where we found dresses for her at Level One. She was really glad I brought her there. (Special thanks to Sarah for introducing me to that place)

On Sunday we had Rev. Dr Bingham preaching about the New Year. Many in the congregation were blessed by the message, including me. Then there was the auto call and people kept on asking for prayer and blessing, it was never ending. By the time we went to eat lunch, I was already late for my guitar lessons with my students. But many had some things on and couldn’t make it =(so I helped Shandy with her homework instead. Then I went to face my doom! Travelling to boon lay was the hardest part of all. I was so scared that my auntie might just fire at me questions that might blow me to pieces (about my results). Oh well, in the end the reunion dinner was okay, I stuck around with my cousins and listened to music behind the couch. Yes, I was in hiding. My naughty cousins also sneaked up behind me and took my friend’s number and terrorized him, such childish behaviour tsk. In the end, my sister betrayed me and told my aunt about my results. Well as Han Solo would say “better her than me”.

On Monday morning at 12 am, my mum got upset with me because I kept on talking to my friend late into the night. And with that I got suspended from my bank account(where my monthly pocket money is transferred to) and to give my hp up after I get back to school. I was devastated. But it turned out alright in the morning, when I had a long chat with my dad, cancelling my meeting with my friends. I’m glad I have understanding parents. Later at night, I went out with Andrea to IKEA and Giant. We walked around IKEA to find some mattress for myself, because my youngest sister pee-ed on the other half of the bed, where my younger sister sleeps. So like a nomad, Stephanie had to sleep on the sofa, my parent’s bed, my bed etc, wherever she liked. So mattresses were on my shopping list. Andrea bought a photo frame for her dad. Anyways, we decided to take a look at Giant and see what is there.(Haha, yeah I haven’t been to Courts or Giant for that matter even though it was a stone’s throw away from my house) We bought the jellies to make today for the street ministry and the cocktail. Yum. And I found out someone has a soft spot for jellies...

On Tuesday I went with my dad to IKEA again to buy the mattress itself today and for some harder bedding. Afterward I picked up my sister from school and we went straight to her piano teacher’s house. We took the wrong bus, so we had to walk in the scorching heat of the day to her house. Ugh. While waiting for my sister to finish her piano lesson, I found a nice shady and windy spot where I read the TIMES magazine, just to get myself in the mood of studying for the SATs, it clearly hasn’t work...yet. When back home and ate dinner and then off to church my dad and I went. To our surprise, my sister and my mum were there at the prayer meeting too. We had great fun worshiping God and reading the bible. Haha and I didn’t know the naked man mentioned in Mark was actually the writer himself. LOL. I don’t know about other people, but I think the bible is an awesome read, just to laugh and lift up your spirits. Anyways, we went back home to watch the inaugural of Barak Obama, however I fell asleep during the arrival of the VIPs etc. I think i was too tired to stay up until the sear in, after all, they were behind schedule. I forced myself to stay awake, but I think the munching of new year goodies did not help me at all, in fact it made it worse. So lala land i was in, while the rest of my family stayed up to watch. Too bad for me. I never was this excited about a swearing in though, well i only wanted to hear his speech, thats all. Oh nevermind.

Today I’m going to start studying!!! Yeah right. Well I’ll see first if I have time after jogging and buying the containers for today’s jelly-making with Andrea and Jeremy. Oh and I still need to prepare my guitar lesson for tomorrow and update my iPod with new songs, yay. Oh and if you were wondering why I changed my blog skin, I wanted to stop my hair standing on its ends whenever I view my blog. It didn’t match with my personality, neither does this skin, but at least it’s better than the previous one, I’ll change my skin once I find a nice navigational skin that I like. Ttfn.